Gone...forever?

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Hello friends,

Over the past month or so, you may notice that I have not been online. I have not been updating my journal, and I have not been submitting new deviations. The reason why I have not is this: It has been blocked off my house internet. I cannot access deviantART or Tumblr AT ALL at my house. My parents found the things I post and the people I communicate with to be inappropriate for me and to my family's image, and for these reasons I am not certain if I can continue keeping this account. It has not been made clear to me if these blockages are permanent, or if I will ever be able to return to this account any time in the near and/or far future. It saddens me to say so, it has been a very fun two years hanging out with you, and I will always cherish the times, memories, and quite especially friends that I have made here, and I have became better friends with who I have found on other media platforms. I will still be on other aspects of the internet, however, and I will leave ways to contact me through other means of which I have not been blocked from below. I hope this is not our final goodbye, and I hope that I will be able to return here. I will truly miss every aspect of this beautiful web site which has so changed my life in every way you could possibly imagine, and even some you could not. There is so much I wish I could've said, wish I could've posted, wish I could have showed every single person of which I have met and came to love through this site. You have truly changed my life for the better. When I came on here, I was in the darkest time of my life, but all of you showed me kindness and love in the best, yet most simple ways. I will never ever be able to thank you enough for this.

I will try my best to convince my parents with every scrap of my living soul to let me back on to a website where I feel truly at home. I didn't think that a simple website could change my life. But it did, and I will always be happy it did. I will miss all of you sorely, and it will likely hurt for a long time, but I will move on. If you feel that I was as much an influence in your life as you were in mine, please contact me as soon as possible on another media source that I can use. I highly suggest that you do, as I will miss each and every one of those extraordinary little names that were so much of an impact on my life.

Please don't cry over this, and please don't miss me, for I am not truly gone. I will always be living because you all have taught me how to. I was a mere scrap of a person when I joined, 12 years old with every problem in a world that couldn't love her. Now I am 14 years old, the age you thought I always was, and the age I finally grew into someone who can love and be happy with herself, no matter how much the world doesn't want me to.

I stress that you please contact me through one of these if you really want to talk to me again, as I am completely, heartbreakingly uncertain on my return.
Email: ljackson@fimbulwinter.com
Twitter: Rock The House @thenastyqueen
Alternative Email: ditchthisemail@yahoo.com
If you wish to be friends with me on Facebook, you must email me and I will decide on if I can add you.

I hope that I don't leave forever, but if this is forever, then all I can say is goodbye.
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kirstentheartist's avatar
I'm so sorry...I don't understand why parents are so concerned about themselves that they totally neglect what's right for their child. We were never really close friends but I'll miss you. Hope you're back soon bae!